The darkness is never-ending

I don’t trust myself so how can I trust anyone

How can I trust anything

I don’t trust that this tunnel has an end

but its ok

I’m used to it

I’m used to the rancid smell of despair which invades the air

The omnipresent dark has become a friend

that i could not bear to part with.

it envelops me from every angle

enters every crevice

whispering with voice like smoke that its ok to stay here

humming haunting lullabies

so that i realise my tiredness

and sink my head into an earthy pillow. 

Amaya (Night Rain)

The rain pours against my window in the dark

Pitter patter

The tears of those who cannot sleep

They knock persistently 

saying ‘’please let me in’’ 

hold me in your warmth

hide me in the soft white you slumber in

so it can smother the harsh voices which haunt me

Like snow which hides our past trespasses 

silences every footstep

blankets our sorrows with its beauty

Make me feel the same as I did when I was a child

and I tasted one of those floating sugar crystals on my tongue

and I felt my soul embers burning brightly

Maybe if you hold me tight enough

I can remember that warmth

and I'll stop bothering you in the night 

but I'll dream sweet dreams

where we play together in the snow.